As a kid, I had a lot of questions but it seemed everything that no-one wanted to talk about was all the stuff that interested me. I knew things, I felt things, I saw things, I ‘predicted’ things. Then I grew up… and put myself in the appropriate box.
I became all the things that spelt success. I was financially and academically successful, high- functioning and I had an amazing highlight reel on social media. The view of my life from the outside was pretty darn good! Married to a wonderful man, we partied hard together before having kids, earnt fantastic money and had brought a big house in a great suburb.
To be honest, it was hard to keep up, I felt so overwhelmed, so tired. When my GP diagnosed me with depression and wrote me a script, a well-meaning friend asked “What have you got to be sad about?”
I wasn’t sure how to answer that. I didn’t know what was wrong at the time. I just knew it wasn’t right. Was this it? Is this what life is about? I have tried it all! Self-medicating, exercise, diet, phycologists, affirmations, challenges, gratitude journals, clubs, support groups, hobbies, to name a few…. then a bullying situation at my work pushed me, pushed me so far it scared me.
Something had to give and the change we can control is within ourselves. I had to change. I made an energetic shift. I learnt to really listen to myself, to want to listen to myself. Respecting myself enough to set boundaries.
This led to the mental shift and realising my purpose.
No one should feel stuck, feel trapped, feel ‘meh’ and I am here to light the path for others, to offer clarity. To make the energetic shift.